The nigga's paw

Well right now I am at Fernando's house doing our Literature project, that is a video about a story that is in our Literature book, that it about a guy who has a monkeys paw that gives 3 wishes for the one who posses the paw... and I don't know what happens next, I haven't finish the story, i guess that I actually I don't care!
Actually at this point I don't care anything, because... I got 90 on chemistry! Yeah:)
I'm so proud od myself... but that it's just something else.
Well now, I just came back from the park that it's just across the street, because I got tired of the mood in here, everyone was getting along with Alan's mood, that was totally unpleasant and I just couldn't take it! So I just got out and sat and eat cookies!
Now I'm here now writting this with a glass of milk, and a cookie on my mouth and... behind me is Alan with Itzel writting the play, and the other guys tell me to don't interrupt his inspiration! but I mean... agh! I'd better don't write it... but again i hold my words, have a deep breath and try to relax... at the end it's just a homework.

Valentine's

I used to think that Valentine's was a waste of time and that almost all the people waste his money on silly things; and that day used to get my self-stem really go so down! and watching all those couples hugging and kissing made me feel like i hate this day, why I'm not enjoying it? I mean I have my friends and stuff but I don't know I used to feel like I actually have to give something to them.
So... this year i decided to don't fall in consumerism and I chose to not give any gift to anybody, except for 4 friends, and i gave them some marshmallows lollipops i kind of, so i agreed with friend to give us to each other a gift with the value of $20.00 so that's what the lollipops cost, so i thought, every thing is fine!
When i arrived to the school i gave my lollipops to the respective person and we ex-changed presents. The person with who i had the agreed, at first gave me a simple lollipop, and i thought, COOL!
Then i got a big balloon, then, another one, then another one, then a rose, then a box with a cuddly and a "message in bottle" it was so damn cute<3.
She maid my day! not only for the presents but also because she tried to change the way I thought about that day, I used to think that Valentine's sucks, and everybody was corny and stuff and I hate corny stuff i think they are so... cloying, but she wasn't actually wasn't and she made me feel bad because i only gave her a marshmallow lollipop!
Anyway... valentine's isn't that bad, uh?

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Well, i have to say that i don't have that much things to say on these days, i've been pretty busy with my thoughts and stuff... i think it's been some kind of messy i guess my life lately, and what can i say? i don't want to bother the world with my issues and stuff, and i feel like i am a closed book for everybody and instead of relaxing my mind, and i don't know try to don't think about it, it comes to me all day long, and i keep them to my self and i stay like that, sometimes i feel like I want to scream so bad, but i can't find the courage to do it; i have so many thing to give but i realize that i live in my house of self protection where i am affraid of taking chances and i try to keep evrything safe and controlable! and i think I'm so fucked up! because maybe i'm losing the greatest thing ever happened and i just refuse to face it and again i stay to my self on my own security and where thing are close to me, easy, and my fears i just throw them away to face them ever....

"i'm just a fucked up girl, looking for my own peace of mind"