I would know, with my eyes closed.

A moment ago, i had a picture on my head of you and I.

Now its literally infront of my sight,

and it is so damn georgeous!

we supose to be together, right?

is not that my conscious wants it... it just feels like it.

It takes me back, to wonderful times.

what else do you want?

It's there... avoiding it, casually discreet.

Tighten and profound.

so private, so intimate, so jealous... so us.

Words are trapped, can think straight again!

don't know how to pretend... don't know what to say.

Why are we so weak to the truth?

We supose to have it by forecast...

it's you with your face against mine.

It's something that just can't be ignored.

...those are your lips touching, brushing,

with softness and caress... mine.

Those are my lips trying to say that I love you.

Who would know?

It dragged me down,

with my head in my toes.

my dried throat, soring.

I shall... end this.

we weren't ready.

I wasn't.

It suposed to be foward,

never look back.

...im sorry, im just so sorry!

my body it's heating from insideout.

baby you aren't there!

...and i want to get rid of,

i want to disappear it,

but so you are so alive and present.

And the voice screming inside my head:

LET IT GO!.

Let's fuck this shit!.

Blacking out.

Blurred maybe...

falling perhaps,

trying to keep straight...

but everything was moving so fast!

Keep thinking by myself, if the euphoria you made me feel was just by being comfortable.

But it was so right, now i just can't leave the idea, it follows me...

No prejudice, drama or things to hide... nothing seems to be wrong.

and i wonder if its just the way you are, or im having utopian and orgasmic thoughts.

I promised my self i wouldnt screw it up again, but it is so tempting.

You looked so good, so relaxed, cute and casual; hard to resist.

Don't blame me, please! I just like the way you make me fall asleep.

And im thinking.... im just being a girl or i confused myself with my instincts.

I don't mind... you were, for a moment, what i wanted.

Just a person that came in, in the right time, moment and place.

I want to know you stranger... you captured me.

Because I think it's beautiful.

Because tonight i don't feel sorrow,

because i've been thinking about you,

because i just saw the day lighting me up,

because i smiled to you, when you walked away from me this afternoon,

because i am feeling free,

no press upon my chest,

with words to spell;

because i am breathing profusely,

because im gonna sit right next you, and i'm going to stay,

because i'm fine and you are fine.

Because today i didn't get mad,

i laughed with joy,

i saw you with tenderness,

nothing seems the same;

because i needed to cry,

i needed to crawl groundly, so i could rise up...

Because it's changed,

because we chose,

because i don't regret,

because im feeling good...

For all the things i learned

all i felt, all i did, all i refuse, defeat, and earned.

Because im grateful,

nothing is new, nothing's old...

just different.

And all things that i feel today

and all i want to preserve

you on my memory

my dark secret, side and story.

because you're there,

and you came to stay...

maybe you wont sit next to me...

but you wont get that far

because its so much more than that,

because its deeper,

because i still don't understand,

because im a girl,

because... just cause...

Because i think your beautiful.

It's been a long time.

Wow! It's been a year since I haven't write a thing, and im not talking here, even on paper!

I have to say that tons of things may happen in a year.

Some of them can be amazingly great and some others devastating; fortunately for me, the greatest won.

Yes! A lot of pain, but it doesn't compare with the time that I couldn´t stop smiling when i walked through the street or wherever I went.

I was scared, you know... but everything was worth it... every single fight with my mom, every tear, every word, sight and rumor... because I was happy.

It was the a holly sin for me.

Unfourtately, it´s over! And it happened in the worse way it could!

Anyway, my heart was so damn broken, and I was devastated as hell; but I think it´s so much more than that, because, we weren´t just a couple in love... it was deeper, I can´t even put a name to what we were, I just know that whenever I hold to my deepest and prettiest memory, I know that there's where I belong; it has buried on me... it feels home.

I can´t have you now, and I don´t think we´ll get it again. We're so ok... everything´s fine, for now. You can find me later.

Love, greetings(: